Post by Kala on Dec 12, 2009 8:35:57 GMT -5
Since my first steps, you have always been there
Since my first words, you have always been there
For as long as I can remember, we have always been together
As childern we played foolish games and fought against monsters that we could only see
All the hours spent staying up late and telling each other secerts that we swore we would tell no one
All the laugher we had causing trouble for everyone else around us
Seems like a past memory now that I stand here thinking of my life
As we grew older, our bond grew stronger, nothing could keep us apart, not even our lessons
During to between our lessons we would spent every moment together
Like when we were younger, we would stay up and tell each other secerts and stories of what happen the last day
Both of us were there for each other when we thought our breaking point was near, we both built each other up again
All of the training we did together to become strong
All of the knowleadge we learned about our selves
Seems like a past memory now that I stand here thinking of my life
Now we are both fully grown and nothing had change, sure we looked different, but we did not care
We helped each other with our new duites given to us
We helped each other as our secert side became more more powerful
We would cry and scream, but in the end be laughing or joking
Both of us were closer than anything on earth
Our bond was something that could not be shaken or broken
How was I wrong...
Sitting at the lake, the one I am at now, I thought of you
You had always been on my mind and the first person I thought off when doing anything
You were there for me as I was there for you
You were my stone that kept me to earth
You were my life subport that kept me afloat through my ups and downs
I started to think about the time when your dark side became to much and I was froced to calm you down
I remember when I had to tell you that others did not fear you
I had to remind you that you were not alone that you had me
I cleaned your face, I washed away your sorrowful thoughts, I built you up again
I listened for hours about your troubles and tried to slove them
I would not judge you about a thing or what you had become
I changed my way of life so you would not be alone at night
I did everything...for you
Then you came, telling me of this girl you thought so highly off
All you did was speak about her and I was sure it was me...who else would do all of those things for you?
I told you of my feelings, I told you that since we were apprentices I had things hidden feelings for you
I told you I would go to the ends of the earth for you and would wait forever if you ever went missing
Then you said it was not me that you loved, but another
I was your friend and I tried to be happy, but emotions took over
Everything with my body was breaking, my heart was stabbing everything that lived within my body
Everything was feeling hollow like everything dissappeared
I was standing in nothing, my feet were not touching a thing nor was anything else of mind
I snarled with rage and tried to get you to change your mind, though I knew it was pointless
Then I lost my memory, though during that time you still walked in my dreams
Then I gained my memory back, everything all at once
I loved you deeply and understood everything and knew everything about you
Though you said we were still friends, best friends til the end of time
I agreed, though I still loved you
I was your best friend and I would be happy for you, even if that meant I was breaking on the inside
It was clear I was missing something that this other girl had that you loved
All of the days I watched you walk, hunt, sleep, and talk with her...like we once did when we were younger
I felt rage, anger, broken, and alone
You were drifting off and it felt like oceans were between us
You were happy and I could not break that, I loved and cared about you to much to rip you apart from her
I went to find another, but none of the toms were what I wanted, I went through many and those many loved me back
I found one and moons later discovered I only loved him because he was like you, all of these moons I was looking for another you
I felt horrible and withdrew myself from everything, at this point we no longer knew what the other was thinking about
How before we would know and finish each other statements
How I miss those times
When I was just you and me
When I was the only on in your life
Soon you were the only thing on my mind like you were once before
I was broken at this point, losing my first mate and one of my kits all of this after losing you
I was drifting away from everyone I cared for in oder to keep myself sane
I tried running away, but you stopped me and told me you were sorry
I forgave you and you said we could be friends again like we once were
Though deep down, I knew it would never be the same until you forgot about 'her'
Until I forgot about 'you'
It worked for awhile, then it started all over agian. You were ingoring me, pushing me away along with everyone else, becoming something I feared
I tried to help, but you only snapped
Once more, I felt something break, it was no longer my heart, but my trust towards you
Twice you gave me your word and broke them
Why?
Is it me?
Do you secertly hate me?
I will never understand
I never had a problem with you love until you change
You moan about wanting her back after she left you
You would not talk to anyone, not even your own kits
You would not fed yourself or move
You just sat there looking off with a blank stare
I do not care anymore if you love her
I do not care if she is the mother of your kits
I do not care if she so called saved you
I do not care if she is alive or not
She is hurting you on the inside out, taking everything away because you have whipped your mind around her
Can't you see you have friends?
What about me...your best friend
I will be there for
the tears
the screams
the fears
the wounds
the sorrow
the frightful
the downs
the ups
the endless nights
the nightmares
the secerts
the everything
I will fight them off, wash you off, build you up, calm you down, listen, and speak
Know that I love you as a friend could and more, but that will not get in the way now
Just return to normal
I am still here waiting....like I said I would
Since my first words, you have always been there
For as long as I can remember, we have always been together
As childern we played foolish games and fought against monsters that we could only see
All the hours spent staying up late and telling each other secerts that we swore we would tell no one
All the laugher we had causing trouble for everyone else around us
Seems like a past memory now that I stand here thinking of my life
As we grew older, our bond grew stronger, nothing could keep us apart, not even our lessons
During to between our lessons we would spent every moment together
Like when we were younger, we would stay up and tell each other secerts and stories of what happen the last day
Both of us were there for each other when we thought our breaking point was near, we both built each other up again
All of the training we did together to become strong
All of the knowleadge we learned about our selves
Seems like a past memory now that I stand here thinking of my life
Now we are both fully grown and nothing had change, sure we looked different, but we did not care
We helped each other with our new duites given to us
We helped each other as our secert side became more more powerful
We would cry and scream, but in the end be laughing or joking
Both of us were closer than anything on earth
Our bond was something that could not be shaken or broken
How was I wrong...
Sitting at the lake, the one I am at now, I thought of you
You had always been on my mind and the first person I thought off when doing anything
You were there for me as I was there for you
You were my stone that kept me to earth
You were my life subport that kept me afloat through my ups and downs
I started to think about the time when your dark side became to much and I was froced to calm you down
I remember when I had to tell you that others did not fear you
I had to remind you that you were not alone that you had me
I cleaned your face, I washed away your sorrowful thoughts, I built you up again
I listened for hours about your troubles and tried to slove them
I would not judge you about a thing or what you had become
I changed my way of life so you would not be alone at night
I did everything...for you
Then you came, telling me of this girl you thought so highly off
All you did was speak about her and I was sure it was me...who else would do all of those things for you?
I told you of my feelings, I told you that since we were apprentices I had things hidden feelings for you
I told you I would go to the ends of the earth for you and would wait forever if you ever went missing
Then you said it was not me that you loved, but another
I was your friend and I tried to be happy, but emotions took over
Everything with my body was breaking, my heart was stabbing everything that lived within my body
Everything was feeling hollow like everything dissappeared
I was standing in nothing, my feet were not touching a thing nor was anything else of mind
I snarled with rage and tried to get you to change your mind, though I knew it was pointless
Then I lost my memory, though during that time you still walked in my dreams
Then I gained my memory back, everything all at once
I loved you deeply and understood everything and knew everything about you
Though you said we were still friends, best friends til the end of time
I agreed, though I still loved you
I was your best friend and I would be happy for you, even if that meant I was breaking on the inside
It was clear I was missing something that this other girl had that you loved
All of the days I watched you walk, hunt, sleep, and talk with her...like we once did when we were younger
I felt rage, anger, broken, and alone
You were drifting off and it felt like oceans were between us
You were happy and I could not break that, I loved and cared about you to much to rip you apart from her
I went to find another, but none of the toms were what I wanted, I went through many and those many loved me back
I found one and moons later discovered I only loved him because he was like you, all of these moons I was looking for another you
I felt horrible and withdrew myself from everything, at this point we no longer knew what the other was thinking about
How before we would know and finish each other statements
How I miss those times
When I was just you and me
When I was the only on in your life
Soon you were the only thing on my mind like you were once before
I was broken at this point, losing my first mate and one of my kits all of this after losing you
I was drifting away from everyone I cared for in oder to keep myself sane
I tried running away, but you stopped me and told me you were sorry
I forgave you and you said we could be friends again like we once were
Though deep down, I knew it would never be the same until you forgot about 'her'
Until I forgot about 'you'
It worked for awhile, then it started all over agian. You were ingoring me, pushing me away along with everyone else, becoming something I feared
I tried to help, but you only snapped
Once more, I felt something break, it was no longer my heart, but my trust towards you
Twice you gave me your word and broke them
Why?
Is it me?
Do you secertly hate me?
I will never understand
I never had a problem with you love until you change
You moan about wanting her back after she left you
You would not talk to anyone, not even your own kits
You would not fed yourself or move
You just sat there looking off with a blank stare
I do not care anymore if you love her
I do not care if she is the mother of your kits
I do not care if she so called saved you
I do not care if she is alive or not
She is hurting you on the inside out, taking everything away because you have whipped your mind around her
Can't you see you have friends?
What about me...your best friend
I will be there for
the tears
the screams
the fears
the wounds
the sorrow
the frightful
the downs
the ups
the endless nights
the nightmares
the secerts
the everything
I will fight them off, wash you off, build you up, calm you down, listen, and speak
Know that I love you as a friend could and more, but that will not get in the way now
Just return to normal
I am still here waiting....like I said I would
